3 strikes and you're out

so lately i have been looking into myself a little bit to see if i couldnt find out why i do some of the things i do.

the main thing is the fact that when a big issue comes up between me and a friend, i have in the past found that it is easiest to just leave the situation or friendship

because of this, i have a black or white, yes or no, good or evil perspective of humans. who is this new person i meet? i instantly categorize them into either 'good' or 'evil'

either worth my time or not

as human beings we are all flawed. and i myself am constantly judging myself to be either 'good' or 'evil' i cant just make one little flaw and move on its no big deal, its devastating.

along with this, the way im living my life is either wonderful or terrible. how is this even mildly acceptable? well let me just say that it no longer is.

i am sick of letting myself and others down through this judgemental attitude. i want to be the girl who is loving and accepting. so what do i do to reach this goal?

i know the reality of the situation is that it is based on a bigger heart issue. one that would take hours to put down on this stupid screen... but i wanted to document the fact that i have in fact realized this generalization that i constantly create, and that i want to put a stop to it.